A poem

Learning more about myself, thanks to a poem from Bekah Jennings' blog. She modified a poem her cousin's husband had written for his wife, and filled in her own responses. I decided to try it out on my own. I found it to be extremely therapeutic, and quite revealing of myself, as I did the same. The words in all caps are the original words. Feel free to try it and repost it, if you dare.

I LOVE my daughter's smile, and the hugs and kisses she only gives when she means them.
I LOVE the way my husband's and daughter's breath smells exactly the same.
I NEED to take more initiative in making the things important to me come to pass, and even more so, need to figure out what those things are, to gain purpose.
I ALWAYS KNOW that I will have the love of my family, no matter what.

I LIKE to go out to the movies with my husband, and how the time away from our daughter only makes me long to have her back in my arms.

I LIKE to go shopping, but am trying to remember that material items are not what is important.

I WORRY that my daughter will not be a well adjusted child, and will have difficulty with social situations, like school.
I WORRY that my temper gets the best of me too often with Scarlett, and that she will grow up to resent us both.
I WONDER if my husband will ever go back to church, because I really can't see it ever happening.

I CAN GUARANTEE that my favorite color will always be red.

I CAN'T guarantee that my hair will ever remain the same color for longer than a year.
I AM GLAD that my parents are coming to visit tomorrow. I miss my Mom's hugs, and my dad's smile.
I LOVE my family.

I WORRY that my life will never be the one I always wanted.

When YOU BALANCE enough vices in your life for long enough, they start to feel like they are a permanent fixture, instead of just things you carry around.
I CAN BALANCE on one foot for about 3 seconds before I fall over.

I WISH I were braver...
I WORRY that I will die of some strange illness before I can see my daughter grow up

I WANT to be skinny, and happy, patient, and talented.
BECAUSE then maybe, I would be able to let go of the vices, and truly be free.