It has recently occurred to me that I may come off as ANNOYING to some people with my updates on my pregnancy. That some people are of the mind that you should just keep your trap shut until after your due date and then you can really wish your baby were here. All I know, is that I waited patiently for Scarlett and still ended up with a C section, which I don't call a happy ending.... so I am just trying to do my best here to be optimistic.
I ran into a friend of mine who was due the week before me, and saw her sweet little boy at the block Halloween party tonight. Her baby is so sweet, tiny, and loveable, and not inside her belly anymore! Will admit, smidge jealous. :)
So, if you are annoyed with my updates, don't read them. Easy enough right? But, that might be why I have shut up for a few days, I hate to be a nuisance.
Last night, I was having steady contractions, a lot of which were like 5 mins apart, so I thought to myself: this is it! We packed up Scooby, and met Rita at the hospital and she took Scooby back home for us, at 1am... I got checked, was 3cm and 50% effaced still, just like when I was checked at the OB that day. They had me lay there for an hour and then came back and checked me, and said there was no progress, so I should go home. Was a bummer, but now I know I will NOT be going to the hospital until I am on the verge of death with contractions, or my water breaks, and that none of the doctors seem to think that we should even think about induction until Friday if I haven't had the baby yet.
I'm hoping not to lose Rita back to UT before the baby arrives, though My Mom says that she will help me to arrange to have some help from some of my fam as I need it with the baby, no matter when she comes. That is reassuring.
I will post Halloween pics/post tomorrow, assuming nothing happens and the baby still isn't here by tomorrow.
In this fine pic, I am wearing the awesome flower that I won back in that giveaway on archiveslives.com. It was my happy reward for checking the mailbox today. I really like it.. even more on than I thought I would when I opened the envelope and looked at it the first time... Also it is just the right size, not so bulky that I get sick of having it on my head.... and comfy enough that I totally took a nap with it on and didn't even realize it! That is an impressive feat. MeThinks Camille could make some good money selling these. Seriously.
My wonderful Mother-in-Law picked up Scarlett at about 11:30 today and took her out to Queen Creek to spend the day with her cousin Rachel at Aunt Nikki's house. Scarlett played and played all day (wouldn't even take a break to eat I guess), and she was gone until about 6:15, falling asleep on the way home in the car.
I got the chance to have a pretty low key day, met up with my sisters and walked around in 2 different Wal-marts, and at Fry's while they shopped. And tonight Joe says he is going to come home so that I can go see a movie with my Sister Wendy. That will be nice.
Yesterday at the OB they did strip my membranes, and in case you weren't aware, it HURTS LIKE HELL. I thought afterwards perhaps I was progressing, but really i was just in throbbing pain from the procedure.
I have been kind of a weepy emotional wreck again this afternoon. These pregnant hormones, are killing me :P I hate feeling like I have no control of my emotions, and sob at the drop of a hat over anything the slightest bit upsetting.
I have another doctors appointment on Friday, and am hoping they will schedule an induction for me. One of the Nurse Practitioners said they wouldn't let me go over my due date... I sure hope that is truth. My due date is 9 days away now.
It doesn't make me feel any better when people tell me the baby is NOT going to come early, so I don't wanna hear it. Pray that she comes soon, for those of you who are in the good graces of God. :)
Still no baby glider yet, I hope I can arrange that business before E gets here... (thinking).
Headed to the OB at 11:40...
They said at 38 weeks they would strip my membranes, so that is the plan today!
Hoping for me, it will be like those ladies who go into labor within 8 hrs... But I'm not holding my breath.
I feel like the baby is dropping.
More and more difficult to roll over at night or move to get up to go to the bathroom.
No steady contractions.
Joe is working a lot, and I miss having him home more, but once the baby comes hopefully he will be around a bit more at least for a little while *fingers crossed* Also of course hoping that there is money to accompany all this work he is doing... that at least makes it seem like there is a purpose for my lonely feelings... besides being just a moody mess of a pregnant woman.
Definitely didn't cry all day long yesterday like I did the day before.
I helped out with my sister's fund raiser at Peter Piper Pizza last night, and came home and joined the Walk for Autism Speaks. I figure even if I can't attend in the end, the support is key.
All donations to this worthy cause are welcome, and you can donate on my page right HERE... so click away! There is also a tax form you can print out after donating, so you can just write it off, and know you have done something great to support the awareness of Autism and its widespread effect on this generation!
I'll keep you guys posted, as I always do.... of our progress after today's appointment.
38 weeks pregnant =
Unhinged and Uncontrollable emotions
Constant insatiable hunger
Frequent Fatigue but inability to get comfortable.
Absence of patience with waiting for baby to be "ready" to come out.
Sleeplessness
Constant desire for love and nurture, accompanied by intense feelings of loneliness
In a Nutshell, not having fun anymore.
It's Sunday morning. Don't seem to be having any contractions or anything. I think Eloise, like her Sister Scarlett wishes to stay in my belly forever. Whomever of you voted that she would come on 11/5, you are not my favorite... lucky for you, it was an anonymous poll and I have NO idea who you are...
I slept pretty good last night. Scooby let me put pajamas on her which makes me happy, helps me not stress all night about whether she is warm enough. She inherited my blanket kicker gene (I could never keep myself covered as a kid, and remember waking up cold SO many times, and I am sure I was always wearing pajamas, but Scooby's are long sleeved and fleecy pants.
Paul and Lizette came and helped Joe move his big desk out of his office this morning. They are moving into a new workspace off of McDonald and Broadway. He kindly woke me up to let me know they were here. I am glad... I got a really nice hug from Lizette... still sort of floating around after. The love of friends is such a powerful thing.. can really boost your mood just knowing that someone truly cares about you.
The weather out at 7ish in the morning is pretty nice. I suppose I can see why some people enjoy waking up early. Still pretty sure it is not my thing. Still haven't installed the car seat or assembled the stroller. Still haven't packed my hospital bag, but thanks for the tips to those who did leave some in the comment thread of last post. this link seems to have a pretty good list.... perhaps I'll use that too.
Went grocery shopping yesterday. Zoom in on my empty bank accounts. I sure hope we get some money in again soon... I sometimes wish I had more skills or valuable stuff to sell. Used my free movie pass to see "It's kind of a funny story" last night with Wendy. It was a great movie.
I love my life. Love my Family, Love my readers. Love my Plurk and FB friends. I think Scarlett is getting more excited for the baby to come. She is beginning to truly understand that baby sister is coming, and that it will be okay. We did watch Dumbo recently so I am pretty sure she thinks the stork will bring the baby. Hopefully that isn't the part she is excited about. :)
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| My Mom also gave me this cute Scarecrow when she was over on Monday. It is fall after all! |
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| I hung these on the wall in my bedroom and once I finish washing all the clothing on the floor, I am going to put the rocker/glider underneath this. |
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| You can see my cute little "e" for Eloise here over her dresser. Can't wait for this little girl to come out! :) |
This morning, I woke up around 3:30am to go to the bathroom, as I do every morning. This morning however, my body and mind would not allow me to return back to sleep. I layed there in my bed, I watched my Beautiful Scarlett Paige sleeping so peacefully next to me. I couldn't stop thinking about how very much I love her. Every bit as much as the day we brought her home from the hospital. But really so much more than I did then. I am so grateful to have been there the day she said her first word..."hi", took her first step, got her first tooth and the first time she smiled at me.
Last night, I received some very saddening news that Joe's cousin's wife was killed in some sort of accident in the desert at the Rawlins family reunion. She was about our age and they had not yet the chance to bear children though they have been married several years. My heart as a pregnant mother ached for this loss. For her mortal life to be over having never been able to experience those joys.
Apart from this very sad news, Yesterday was such a wonderful day for me. My wonderful wonderful friend Lizette threw me the most fantastic baby shower ever. The food was amazing, and decor so beautiful. We played a word scramble and word search game with baby words and played the "guess how big my baby belly is" game. Lizette, with lots of help from her awesome Husband Paul made the most delicious cake! We still have lots more, please come over and help me eat it!
We had the party out on their back porch and between the two shade tents and afternoon shade of their tree and house, the weather could not have been better. I truly felt so blessed to have so many of my closest loved ones there. They were all so very generous to "shower" me with gifts!
Eloise will definitely have all of the nice things that a baby needs, and I already love her so much that I feel like my heart could burst at the seams.
Lizette had Joe bring his fancy camera, and I was a bit anxious that nobody would be able to figure out how to use it,but then it dawned on me that my fantastic friend Nina is a photography pro! She picked up that camera and became an instant event photographer. It was so fun looking through all the pictures after the party was over! There will definitely be a post to come with lots of pictures once I can get Joe to show me how to load them on the computer.
I even got to catch a post-shower Movie with some of my girls!! I am so grateful for Joe being willing to watch Scarlett so I could go, even though he has had a really tiring work week. We saw "Life as we know it" which of course also helped me to appreciate all the small and precious moments we get to share with our children.
Lots of love and gratitude to all who came on Saturday. I hope you all enjoyed it as much as I did!
When you live in an arid desert, a little rain, or a lot... is an EVENT. Everyone runs to their Facebooks, and says things like, "OMG It's raining!" or "Hail storm, say what?!" We don't do things like check the forecast to plan our wardrobes for the day, assuming that today, just like every day for the last 3 months will be record breaking triple digit heat.... so today, I wore a sun-dress with a tank-top underneath... and it not only rained, but hailed. Scarlett and I were out to lunch with my sister Wendy when the storm appeared out of nowhere. Afterward we decided to run to Walmart. Wendy dropped us off in front of the store and yet, we still got pretty wet. This is Scarlett, wrapped in the blanket that I had fortunately brought with us.
I opened a Due Date pool on the right sidebar... so vote for the date you think the baby will come!
My baby shower is now only a week away, and I am super excited! I love watching things get purchased off of my registry... it is better than Christmas! I got the car seat and bases from my friend Marsha a couple of days ago, and it is super cute... Once I get the Stroller assembled I will take a pic of the car seat in it so you can see.
It is becoming increasingly more uncomfortable by the day. As it is I can hardly walk when I attempt to climb out of bed... even the getting up is so painful! The doc says your muscles and everything just become looser after the first one and so you have a lot more aches and pains with subsequent pregnancies. This is lame... not sure I want to go through this again, let alone bear through a whole other month of this. I have an OB appointment on Monday at 11:50. Still trying to put up the good fight to get my AHCCCS back... please people, give a pregnant lady a break! I am so grateful to my sis in law Nikki W who has helped and is continuing to help me put the ledger stuff together. I hate stress!
Not much more news to share... but I was feeling bad that it has been so long since my last post.
Here are some pics I have taken in the last few weeks.
